MARY LAMB
HER education in youth was
not much attended to, and she happily missed all the train of female
garniture
which passeth by the name of accomplishments. She was tumbled early, by
accident or providence, into a spacious closet of good old English
reading,
without much selection or prohibition, and browsed at will upon that
fair and
wholesome pasturage. Had I twenty girls they should be brought
up exactly in
this fashion. I know not whether their chance in wedlock might not be
diminished by it, but I can answer for it that it maketh (if worst
comes to
worst) most incomparable old maids
— "Essays of Elia."
MARY
LAMB
I SING the love of brother
and sister. For he who tells the tale of Charles and Mary Lamb's life
must tell
of a love that was an uplift to this brother and sister in
childhood, that
sustained them in the desolation of disaster, and was a saving solace
even when
every hope seemed gone and reason veiled her face. This love caused the
flowers
of Springtime to bloom for them again and again, and attracted such a
circle of
admirers that, as we read the records of their lives, set forth in the
letters
they received and wrote, we forget poverty, forget calamity, and behold
only
the radiant, smiling faces of loving, trusting, trustful
friends.
The mother of Charles and
Mary Lamb was a woman of fine natural endowment, of spirit and of
aspiration.
She married a man much older than herself. We know but little about
John Lamb;
we know nothing of his ancestry. Neither do we care to. He was not good
enough
to attract, nor bad enough to be interesting. He called himself a
scrivener, but
in fact he was a valet. He was neutral salts; and I say this just after
having
read his son's amiable mention of him under the guise of "Lovel," and
with full knowledge that "he danced well, was a good judge of vintage,
played the harpsichord, and recited poetry on occasion."
When a woman of spirit
stands up before a priest and makes solemn promise to live with a man
who plays
the harpsichord and is a good judge of vintage, and to love him until
either he
or she dies, she sows the seeds of death and disorder. Of course, I
know that
men and women who make promises before priests know not at the time
what they
do; they find out afterwards.
And so they were married,
were John Lamb and Elizabeth Field; and probably very soon thereafter
Elizabeth
had a premonition that this union only held in store a glittering blade
of
steel for her heart. For she grew ill and dispirited, and John found
companionship at the alehouse, and came stumbling home asking what the
devil
was the reason his wife couldn't meet him with a smile and a kiss and
a' that,
as a dutiful wife should!
Elizabeth began to live more
and more within herself.
We often hear foolish men
taunt women with inability to keep secrets. But women who talk much
often do
keep secrets — there are nooks in their hearts where the sun
never enters, and
where those nearest them are never allowed to look. More lives are
blasted by
secrecy than by frankness — ay! a thousand times. Why should
such a thing as a
secret ever exist? 'T is preposterous, and is proof positive of
depravity. If
you and I are to live together, my life must be open as the ether and
all my
thoughts be yours. If I keep back this and that, you will find it out
some day
and suspect, with reason, that I also keep back the other. Ananias and
Sapphira
met death, not so much for simple untruthfulness as for keeping
something back.
Elizabeth Lamb sought to
protect herself against an unappreciative mate by secrecy
(perhaps she had
to), and the habit grew until she kept secrets as a business
— she kept foolish
little secrets. Did she get a letter from her aunt, she read it in
suggestive
silence and then put it in her pocket. If visitors called she never
mentioned
it, and when the children heard of it weeks afterward they marveled.
And so shy little Mary Lamb
wondered what it was her mother kept locked up in the bottom drawer of
the
bureau, and Mary was told that children must not ask questions
— little girls
should be seen and not heard.
At night, Mary would dream
of the things that were in that drawer, and sometimes great, big, black
things
would creep out through the keyhole and grow bigger and bigger until
they
filled the room so full that you couldn't breathe, and then little Mary
would
cry aloud and scream, and her father would come with a strap that was
kept on a
nail behind the kitchen-door and teach her better than to wake
everybody up in
the middle of the night.
Yet Mary loved her mother,
and sought in many ways to meet her wishes, and all the time her mother
kept
the bureau drawer locked, and away somewhere on a high shelf
was hidden all
tenderness — all the gentle loving words and the caresses
which children crave.
And little Mary's life
seemed full of troubles, and the world a grievous place where
everybody
misunderstands everybody else; and at nighttime she would often hide
her face
in the pillow and cry herself to sleep. But when she was ten years of
age a
great joy came into her life — a baby brother came! And all
the love in the
little girl's heart was poured out for the puny baby boy. Babies are
troublesome
things, anyway, where folks are awful poor and where there are no
servants and
the mother is not so very strong. And so Mary became the baby's own
little
foster-mother, and she carried him about, and long before he could lisp
a word
she had told him all the hopes and secrets of her heart, and he cooed
and
laughed, and lying on the floor, kicked his heels in the air and
treated hope
and love and ambition alike.
I can not find that Mary
ever went to school. She stayed at home and sewed, did housework, and
took care
of the baby. All her learning came by absorption. When the boy was
three years
old she taught him his letters, and did it so deftly and well that he
used to
declare he could always read — and this is as it should be.
When seven years of
age the boy was sent to the Blue-Coat School. This was brought about
through
the influence of Mr. Salt, for whom John Lamb worked. Mr. Salt was a
Bencher,
and be it known a Bencher in England is not exactly the same thing as a
Bencher
in America. Mr. Salt took quite a notion to little Mary Lamb, and once
when she
came to his office with her father's dinner, the honorable Bencher
chucked her
under the chin, said she was a fine little girl, and asked her if she
liked to
read. And when she answered, "Oh, yes, sir!" and then added, "If
you please!" the Bencher laughed, and told her she was welcome to take
any
book in his library. And so we find she spent many happy hours in the
great
man's library; and it was through her importunities that Mr. Salt got
banty
Charles the scholarship in Christ's Hospital School.
Now the Blue-Coat boys are a
curiosity to every sightseer in London — and have been for
these hundred years
and more. Their long-tailed blue coats, buckle-shoes, and absence of
either
hats or caps bring the Yankee up with a halt. To conduct an American
around to
the vicinity of Christ's Hospital and let him discover a "Blue-Coat"
for himself is a sensation. The costume is exactly the same as that
worn by
Edward, "the Boy King," who founded the school; and these youngsters,
like the birds, never grow old. You lean against the high iron fence,
and
looking through the bars watch the boys frolic and play, just as
visitors
looked in the Eighteenth Century; and I've never been by Christ's
Hospital yet
when curious people did not stand and stare. And one thing the
Blue-Coats seem
to prove, and that is that hats are quite superfluous.
One worthy man from
Jamestown, New York, was so impressed by these hatless boys that he
wrote a
book proving that the wearing of hats was what has kept the race in
bondage to
ignorance all down the ages. By statistics he proved that the
Blue-Coats had
attained distinction quite out of ratio to their number, and cited
Coleridge,
Leigh Hunt, Charles Lamb and many others as proof. This man returned to
Jamestown hatless, and had he not caught cold and been carried off by
pneumonia, would have spread his hatless gospel, rendering the name of
Knox the
Hatter infamous, and causing the word "Derby" to be henceforth a
byword and a hissing.
When little Charles Lamb
tucked the tails of his long blue coat under his belt and played
leap-frog in
the school-yard every morning at ten minutes after 'leven, his sister,
wan,
yellow and dreamy, used to come and watch him through these selfsame
iron bars.
She would wave the corner of her rusty shawl in loving token, and he
would
answer back and would have lifted his hat if he had had one. When the
bell rang
and the boys went pellmell into the entry-way, Charles would linger and
hold
one hand above his head as the stone wall swallowed him, and the sister
knowing
that all was well would hasten back to her work in Little Queen Street,
hard
by, to wait for the morrow when she could come again.
"Who is that girl
always hanging 'round after you?" asked a tall, handsome boy, called
Ajax,
of little Charles Lamb.
"Wh' why, don't you
know — that, wh' why that's my sister Mary!"
"How should I know when
you have never introduced me!" loftily replied Ajax.
And so the next day, at ten
minutes after 'leven, Charles and the mighty Ajax came down to the
fence, and
Charles had to call to Mary not to run away, and Charles introduced
Ajax to
Mary and they shook hands through the fence. And the next week Ajax,
who was
known in private life as Samuel Taylor Coleridge, called at the house
in Little
Queen Street where the Lambs lived, and they all had gin and water, and
the
elder Lamb played the harpsichord, a secondhand one that had been
presented by
Mr. Salt, and recited poetry, and Coleridge talked the elder Lamb under
the
table and argued the entire party into silence. Coleridge was only
seventeen
then, but a man grown, and already took snuff like a courtier, tapping
the lid
of the bog meditatively and flashing a conundrum the while on the
admiring
company.
Mary kept about as close run
of the Blue-Coat School as if she had been a Blue-Coat herself. Still,
she felt
it her duty to keep one lesson in advance of her brother, just to know
that he
was progressing well.
He continued to go to school
until he was fourteen, when he was set to work in the South Sea
Company's
office, because his income was needed to keep the family. Mary was
educating
the boy with the help of Mr. Salt's library, for a boy as fine as
Charles must
be educated, you know. By and by the bubble burst, and young Lamb was
transferred
to the East India Company's office, and being promoted was making
nearly a
hundred pounds a year.
And Mary sewed and borrowed
books and toiled incessantly, but was ill at times. People said her
head was
not just right she was overworked and nervous or something! The father
had lost
his place on account of too much gin and water, especially gin; the
mother was
almost helpless from paralysis, and in the family was an aged
maiden aunt to
be cared for. The only regular income was the salary of Charles There
they lived in their poverty and
lowliness, hoping for better things!
Charles was working away
over the ledgers, and used to come home fagged and weary, and Coleridge
was far
away, and there was no boy to educate now, and only sick and foolish
and quibbling
people on whom to strike fire. The demnition grind did its work for
Mary Lamb
as surely as it is today doing it for countless farmers' wives in Iowa
and
Illinois.
Thus ran the years away.
Mary Lamb, aged thirty-two,
gentle, intelligent and wondrous kind, in sudden frenzy seized a knife
from the
table and with one thrust sank the blade into her mother's heart.
Charles Lamb,
in an adjoining room, hearing the commotion, entered quickly and taking
the
knife from his sister's hand, put his arm about her and tenderly led
her away.
Returning in a few moments,
the mother was dead. Women often make a shrill outcry at sight of a
mouse; men
curse roundly when large, buzzing, bluebottle flies disturb their
after-dinner
nap; but let occasion come and the stuff of which heroes are made is in
us all.
I think well of my kind. Charles Lamb made no outcry, he shed no tears,
he
spoke no word of reproach. He met each detail of that terrible issue as
coolly,
calmly and surely as if he had been making entries in his journal. No
man ever
loved his mother more, but she was dead now — she was dead.
He closed the
staring eyes, composed the stiffening limbs, kept curious sightseers at
bay,
and all the time thought of what he could do to protect the living
— she who
had wrought this ruin.
Charles was twenty-one
— a
boy in feeling and temperament, a frolicsome, heedless boy. In
an hour he had
become a man.
It requires a subtler pen
than mine to trace the psychology of this tragedy; but let me say thus
much, it
had its birth in love, in unrequited love; and the outcome of it was an
increase of love.
O God! how wonderful are Thy
works! Thou makest the rotting log to nourish banks of violets, and
from the
stagnant pool at Thy word springs forth the lotus that covers all with
fragrance
and beauty!
COLERIDGE in his youth was
brilliant — no one disputes that. He dazzled Charles and Mary
Lamb from the
very first. Even when a Blue-Coat he could turn a pretty quatrain, and
when he
went away to Cambridge and once in a long while wrote a letter down to
"My
Own C. L.," it was a feast for the sister, too. Mary was different from
other girls: she didn’t "have company," she was too honest
and
serious and earnest for society — her ideals too high.
Coleridge — handsome,
witty, philosophic Coleridge — was her ideal. She loved him
from afar.
How vain it is to ponder in
our minds the what-might-have-been! Yet how can we help wondering what
would
have been the result had Coleridge wedded Mary Lamb! In many ways it
seems it
would have been an ideal mating, for Mary Lamb's mental dowry made good
Coleridge's every deficiency, and his merits equalized all that she
lacked. He
was sprightly, headstrong, erratic, emotional; she was equally
keen-witted, but
a conservative in her cast of mind. That she was capable of a great and
passionate love there is no doubt, and he might have been. Mary Lamb
would have
been his anchor to win'ard, but as it was he drifted straight onto the
rocks.
Her mental troubles came from a lack of responsibility — a
rusting away of unused
powers in a dull, monotonous round of commonplace. Had her heart found
its home
I can not conceive of her in any other light than as a splendid,
earnest woman
— sane, well-poised, and doing a work that only the strong
can do. Coleridge
has left on record the statement that she was the only woman he ever
met who
had a "logical mind" — that is to say, the only woman who
ever
understood him when he talked his best. (Coleridge made progress at the
Blue-Coat School: he became "Deputy Grecian," or head scholar. This
secured him a scholarship at Cambridge, and thither he went in search
of
honors. But his revolutionary and Unitarian principles did not
serve him in
good stead, and he was placed under the ban.
At the same time a youth by
the name of Robert Southey was having a like experience at Oxford.
Other youths
had tried in days agone to shake Cambridge and Oxford out of their
conservatism, and the result was that the embryo revolutionists
speedily found
themselves warned off the campus. So through sympathy Coleridge and
Southey
met. Coleridge also brought along a young philosopher and poet, who had
also
been a Blue-Coat, by the name of Lovell.
These three young men talked
philosophy, and came to the conclusion that the world was wrong. They
said
society was founded on a false hypothesis — they would better
things. And so
they planned packing up and away to America to found an Ideal Community
on the
banks of the Susquehanna. But hold! a society without women is founded
on a
false hypothesis — that's so — what to do? Now in
America there are no women
but Indian squaws.
But resource did not fail
them — Southey thought of the Fricker family, a mile out on
the Bristol road.
There were three fine, strong, intelligent girls — what
better than to marry
'em? The world should be peopled from the best. The girls were
consulted and
found willing to reorganize society on the communal basis, and so the
three
poets married the three sisters — more properly, each of the
three poets
married a sister. "Thank God," said Lamb, "that there were not
four of those Fricker girls, or I, too, would have been bagged, and the
world
peopled from the best!"
Southey got the only prize
out of the hazard; Lovell's wife was so-so, and Coleridge drew a blank,
or
thought he did, which was the same thing; for as a man thinketh so is
she. The
thought of a lifetime on the banks of the Susquehanna with a woman who
was
simply pink and good, and who was never roused into animation even by
his
wildest poetic bursts, took all ambition out of him.
Funds were low and the
emigration scheme was temporarily pigeonholed. After a short
time Coleridge
declared his mind was getting mildewed and packed off to London for
mental
oxygen and a little visit, leaving his wife in Southey's charge.
He was gone two years.
Lovell soon followed suit,
and Southey had three sisters in his household, all with babies.
In the meantime we find
Southey installed at "Greta," just outside of the interesting town of
Keswick, where the water comes down at Lodore. Southey was a general:
he knew
that knowledge consists in having a clerk who can find the thing. He
laid out
research work and literary schemes enough for several lifetimes, and
the three
sisters were hard at it. It was a little community of their own
— all working
for Southey, and glad of it. Wordsworth and his sister Dorothy lived at
Grasmere, thirteen miles away, and they used to visit back and forth.
When you
go to Keswick you should tramp that thirteen miles — the man
who hasn't tramped
from Keswick to Grasmere has dropped something out of his life. In
merry jest,
tipped with acid, some one called them "The Lake Poets," as if there
were poets and lake poets. And Lamb was spoken of as "a Lake Poet by
grace." Literary London grinned, as we do when some one speaks of the
Sweet Singer of Michigan or the Chicago Muse. But the term of contempt
stuck
and, like the words Methodist, Quaker and Philistine, soon ceased to be
a term
of reproach and became something of which to be proud.
There is a lead-pencil
factory at Keswick, established in the year Eighteen Hundred. Pencils
are made
there today exactly as they were made then, and when you see the
factory you
are willing to believe it. All visitors at Keswick go to the
pencil-factory and
buy pencils, such as Southey used, and get their names stamped on each
pencil
while they wait, without extra charge. On the wall is a silhouette
picture of
Southey, showing a needlessly large nose, and the gentlemanly
old proprietor
will tell you that Dorothy Wordsworth made the picture; and then he
will show
you a letter written by Charles Lamb, framed under glass, wherein C. L:
says
all pencils are fairish good, but no pencils are so good as Keswick
pencils.
For a while, when times were
hard, Coleridge's wife worked here making pencils, while her archangel
husband
(a little damaged) went with Wordsworth to study metaphysics at
Gottingen. When
Coleridge came back and heard what his wife had done, he reproved her
— gently
but firmly. Mrs. Ajax in a pencil-factory wearing a check apron with a
bib! —
huh!!
Southey had concluded that
if Coleridge and Lovell were good samples of socialism he would stick
to
individualism. So he joined the Church of England, became a Monarchist,
sang
the praises of royalty, got a pension, became Poet Laureate, and rich
— passing
rich.
"Wh-wh-when he secured
for himself the services of three good women he made a wise move," said
C.
L.
And all the time Coleridge
and Lamb were in correspondence; and when Coleridge was in London he
kept close
run of the Lambs. The father and old aunt had passed out, and Charles
and Mary
lived together in rooms. They seemed to have moved very often-their
record
followed them. When the other tenants heard that "she's the one that
killed her mother," they ceased to let their children play in the
hallways,
and the landlord apologized, coughed, and raised the rent. Poor Charles
saw the
point and did not argue it. He looked for other lodgings and having
found 'em
went home and said to Mary, "It's too noisy here, Sister — I
can't stand
it! We'll have to go!"
Charles was a literary man
now: a bookkeeper by dap and a literary man by night. He wrote to
please his
sister, and all his jokes were for her. There is a genuine vein of
pathos in
all true humor, but think of the fear and the love and the tenderness
that are
concealed in Charles Lamb's work that was designed only to fight off
dread
calamity! And Mary copied and read and revised for her brother, and he
told it
all to her before he wrote it, and together they discussed it in
detail.
Charles studied mathematics, just to keep his genius under, he
declared. Mary
smiled and said it wasn’t necessary.
Coleridge used to drop in,
and the Stoddarts, Hazlitts, Godwin and Lovell, too. Then Southey was
up in
London and he called and so did Wordsworth and Dorothy, for Coleridge
had
spread Lamb's fame. And Dorothy and Mary kissed each other and held
hands under
the table, and when Dorothy went back to Grasmere she wrote many
beautiful
letters to Mary and urged her to come and visit her — yes,
come to Grasmere and
live. The one point they held in common was a love for Coleridge; and
as he
belonged to neither there was no room for jealousy. The Fricker girls
were all
safely married, but Charles and Mary could not think of going
— they needs must
hide in a big city. "I hate your damned throstles and larks and
bobolinks," said C. L., in feigned contempt. "I sing the praises of
the 'Salutation and the Cat' and a snug fourth-floor back."
They could not leave London,
for over them ever hung that black cloud of a mind diseased.
"I can do nothing
—
think nothing. Mary has another of her bad spells — we saw it
coming, and I
took her away to a place of safety," writes Charles to Coleridge.
One writer tells of seeing
Charles and Mary walking across Hampstead Heath, hand in hand, both
crying. They
were on the way to the asylum.
Fortunately these
"illnesses" gave warning and Charles would ask his employer leave for
a "holiday," and stay at home trying by gentle mirth and work to
divert the dread visitor of unreason.
After each illness, in a few
weeks the sister would be restored to her own, very weak and her mind a
blank
as to what had gone before. And so she never remembered that supreme
calamity.
She knew the deed had been done, but Heaven had absolved her gentle
spirit from
all participation in it. She often talked of her mother, wrote of her,
quoted
her, and that they should sometime be again united was her firm faith.
The "Tales From
Shakespeare" was written at the suggestion of Godwin, seconded by
Charles.
The idea that she herself could write seemed never to have occurred to
Mary,
until Charles swore with a needless oath that all the ideas he ever had
she
supplied.
"Charles, dear, you've
been drinking again!" said Mary. But the "Tales" sold and sold
well; fame came that way and more money than the simple, plain,
home-keeping
bodies needed. So they started a pension-roll for sundry old ladies,
and to
themselves played high and mighty patron, and figured and talked and
joked over
the blue teacups as to what they should do with their money —
five hundred
pounds a year! Goodness gracious, if the Bank of England gets in a
pinch advise
C. L., at Thirty-four Southampton Buildings, third floor, second
turning to the
left but one.
A
Mrs.
Reynolds was one of the pensioners, but no
one knew it but Mrs. Reynolds, and she never told. She was a Lady of
the Old
School, and used often to dine with the Lambs and get her snuffbox
filled. Her
husband had been a shipcaptain or something, and when the tea
was strong she
would take snuff and tell the visitors about him and swear she had ever
been
true to his memory, though God knows all good-looking and clever widows
are
sorely tried in this scurvy world! Mrs. Reynolds met Thomas Hood at a
"Saturday Evening" at the Lambs', and he was so taken with her that
he has told us "she looked like an elderly wag doll in half mourning,
and
when she spoke it was as if by an artificial process; she always kept
up the
gurgle and buzz until run down."
Mrs. Reynolds' sole claim to
literary distinction was the fact that she had known Goldsmith and he
had
presented her with an inscribed copy of "The Deserted Village." But
we all have a tender place in our hearts for the elderly wag doll
because the
Lambs were so gentle and patient with her, and once a year went to
Highgate and
put a shilling vase of flowers over the grave of the Captain to whose
memory
she was ever true.
These friendless old souls
used to meet and mix at the Lambs' with those whose names are now
deathless.
You can not write the history of English Letters and leave the Lambs
out. They
were the loved and loving friends of Southey, Wordsworth, Coleridge, De
Quincey, Jeffries and Godwin. They won the recognition of all who prize
the
far-reaching intellect — the subtle imagination. The pathos
and tenderness of
their lives entwine us with tendrils that hold our hearts in thrall.
They adopted a little girl,
a beautiful little girl by the name of Emma Isola. And never was there
child
that was a greater joy to parents than was Emma Isola to Charles and
Mary. The
wonder is they did not spoil her with admiration, and by laughing at
all her
foolish little pranks. Mary set herself the task of educating this
little girl,
and formed a class the better to do it — a class of three:
Emma Isola, William
Hazlitt's son and Mary Victoria Novello. I met Mary Victoria once;
she's over
eighty years of age now. Her form is a little bent, but her eye is
bright and
her smile is the smile of youth. Folks call her Mary Cowden-Clarke.
And I want you to remember,
dearie, that it was Mary Lamb who introduced the other Mary to
Shakespeare, by
reading to her the MS. of the "Tales." And further, that it was the
success of the "Tales" that fired Mary Cowden-Clarke with an ambition
also to do a great Shakespearian work. There may be a question about
the
propriety of calling the "Tales" a great work — their
simplicity
seems to forbid it — but the term is all right when applied
to that splendid
life-achievement, the "Concordance," of which Mary Lamb was the
grandmother.
Emma Isola married Edward
Moxon, and the Moxon home was the home of Mary Lamb whenever she wished
to make
it so, to the day of her death. The Moxons did good by stealth, and
were glad
they never awoke and found it fame.
"What shall I do when
Mary leaves me, never to return?" once said Charles to Manning. But
Mary
lived for full twenty years after Charles had gone, and lived only in
loving
memory of him who had devoted his life to her. She seemed to exist just
to talk
of him and to garland the grave in the little old churchyard at
Edmonton, where
he sleeps. Wordsworth says, "A grave is a tranquillizing object:
resignation in time springs up from it as naturally as wild flowers
bespread
the turf." Her work was to look after the "pensioners" and carry
out the wishes of "my brother Charles."
But the pensioners were laid
away to rest, one after the other, and the gentle Mary, grown old and
feeble,
became a pensioner too, but, thanks to that divine humanity
that is found in
English hearts, she never knew it. To the last, she looked after "the
worthy poor," and carried flowers once a year to the grave of the
gallant
Captain Reynolds at Highgate, and never tired of sounding the praises
of
Charles and excusing the foibles of Coleridge. She lived only
in the past and
its loving memories were more than a ballast 'gainst the ills of the
present.
And so she went down into
the valley and entered the great shadow, telling in cheerful, broken
musings of
a brother's love it.
And then she was carried to
the churchyard at Edmonton. There she rests in the grave with her
brother. In
life they were never separated, and in death they are not divided.
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