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CHAPTER XXII
I knew what
it was as she came toward me. For ten minutes I had watched her talking
earnestly with the engineer, and now, with a sign for silence, I drew her out
of earshot of the helmsman. Her face was white and set; her large eyes,
larger than usual what of the purpose in them, looked penetratingly into
mine. I felt rather timid and apprehensive, for she had come to search
Humphrey Van Weyden’s soul, and Humphrey Van Weyden had nothing of which to be
particularly proud since his advent on the Ghost. We walked to
the break of the poop, where she turned and faced me. I glanced around to
see that no one was within hearing distance. “What is
it?” I asked gently; but the expression of determination on her face did not
relax. “I can
readily understand,” she began, “that this morning’s affair was largely an
accident; but I have been talking with Mr. Haskins. He tells me that the
day we were rescued, even while I was in the cabin, two men were drowned,
deliberately drowned — murdered.” There was a
query in her voice, and she faced me accusingly, as though I were guilty of the
deed, or at least a party to it. “The
information is quite correct,” I answered. “The two men were murdered.” “And you
permitted it!” she cried. “I was
unable to prevent it, is a better way of phrasing it,” I replied, still gently. “But you
tried to prevent it?” There was an emphasis on the “tried,” and a
pleading little note in her voice. “Oh, but you
didn’t,” she hurried on, divining my answer. “But why didn’t you?” I shrugged
my shoulders. “You must remember, Miss Brewster, that you are a new
inhabitant of this little world, and that you do not yet understand the laws
which operate within it. You bring with you certain fine conceptions of
humanity, manhood, conduct, and such things; but here you will find them
misconceptions. I have found it so,” I added, with an involuntary sigh. She shook
her head incredulously. “What would
you advise, then?” I asked. “That I should take a knife, or a gun, or an
axe, and kill this man?” She half
started back. “No, not
that!” “Then what
should I do? Kill myself?” “You speak
in purely materialistic terms,” she objected. “There is such a thing as
moral courage, and moral courage is never without effect.” “Ah,” I
smiled, “you advise me to kill neither him nor myself, but to let him kill
me.” I held up my hand as she was about to speak. “For moral
courage is a worthless asset on this little floating world. Leach, one of
the men who were murdered, had moral courage to an unusual degree. So had
the other man, Johnson. Not only did it not stand them in good stead, but
it destroyed them. And so with me if I should exercise what little moral
courage I may possess. “You must
understand, Miss Brewster, and understand clearly, that this man is a
monster. He is without conscience. Nothing is sacred to him,
nothing is too terrible for him to do. It was due to his whim that I was
detained aboard in the first place. It is due to his whim that I am still
alive. I do nothing, can do nothing, because I am a slave to this
monster, as you are now a slave to him; because I desire to live, as you will
desire to live; because I cannot fight and overcome him, just as you will not
be able to fight and overcome him.” She waited
for me to go on. “What
remains? Mine is the role of the weak. I remain silent and suffer
ignominy, as you will remain silent and suffer ignominy. And it is
well. It is the best we can do if we wish to live. The battle is
not always to the strong. We have not the strength with which to fight
this man; we must dissimulate, and win, if win we can, by craft. If you
will be advised by me, this is what you will do. I know my position is
perilous, and I may say frankly that yours is even more perilous. We must
stand together, without appearing to do so, in secret alliance. I shall
not be able to side with you openly, and, no matter what indignities may be put
upon me, you are to remain likewise silent. We must provoke no scenes
with this man, nor cross his will. And we must keep smiling faces and be
friendly with him no matter how repulsive it may be.” She brushed
her hand across her forehead in a puzzled way, saying, “Still I do not
understand.” “You must do
as I say,” I interrupted authoritatively, for I saw Wolf Larsen’s gaze
wandering toward us from where he paced up and down with Latimer
amidships. “Do as I say, and ere long you will find I am right.” “What shall
I do, then?” she asked, detecting the anxious glance I had shot at the object
of our conversation, and impressed, I flatter myself, with the earnestness of
my manner. “Dispense
with all the moral courage you can,” I said briskly. “Don’t arouse this
man’s animosity. Be quite friendly with him, talk with him, discuss
literature and art with him — he is fond of such things. You will find
him an interested listener and no fool. And for your own sake try to
avoid witnessing, as much as you can, the brutalities of the ship. It
will make it easier for you to act your part.” “I am to
lie,” she said in steady, rebellious tones, “by speech and action to lie.” Wolf Larsen
had separated from Latimer and was coming toward us. I was desperate. “Please,
please understand me,” I said hurriedly, lowering my voice. “All your
experience of men and things is worthless here. You must begin over
again. I know, — I can see it — you have, among other ways, been used to
managing people with your eyes, letting your moral courage speak out through
them, as it were. You have already managed me with your eyes, commanded
me with them. But don’t try it on Wolf Larsen. You could as easily
control a lion, while he would make a mock of you. He would — I have always
been proud of the fact that I discovered him,” I said, turning the conversation
as Wolf Larsen stepped on the poop and joined us. “The editors were
afraid of him and the publishers would have none of him. But I knew, and
his genius and my judgment were vindicated when he made that magnificent hit
with his ‘Forge.’” “And it was
a newspaper poem,” she said glibly. “It did
happen to see the light in a newspaper,” I replied, “but not because the
magazine editors had been denied a glimpse at it.” “We were
talking of Harris,” I said to Wolf Larsen. “Oh, yes,”
he acknowledged. “I remember the ‘Forge.’ Filled with pretty
sentiments and an almighty faith in human illusions. By the way, Mr. Van
Weyden, you’d better look in on Cooky. He’s complaining and restless.” Thus was I
bluntly dismissed from the poop, only to find Mugridge sleeping soundly from
the morphine I had given him. I made no haste to return on deck, and when
I did I was gratified to see Miss Brewster in animated conversation with Wolf
Larsen. As I say, the sight gratified me. She was following my
advice. And yet I was conscious of a slight shock or hurt in that she was
able to do the thing I had begged her to do and which she had notably disliked. |