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CHAPTER XXXVIII
“I think my
left side is going,” Wolf Larsen wrote, the morning after his attempt to fire
the ship. “The numbness is growing. I can hardly move my
hand. You will have to speak louder. The last lines are going
down.” “Are you in
pain?” I asked. I was
compelled to repeat my question loudly before he answered: “Not all the
time.” The left
hand stumbled slowly and painfully across the paper, and it was with extreme
difficulty that we deciphered the scrawl. It was like a “spirit message,”
such as are delivered at séances of spiritualists for a dollar admission. “But I am
still here, all here,” the hand scrawled more slowly and painfully than ever. The pencil
dropped, and we had to replace it in the hand. “When there
is no pain I have perfect peace and quiet. I have never thought so
clearly. I can ponder life and death like a Hindoo sage.” “And
immortality?” Maud queried loudly in the ear. Three times
the hand essayed to write but fumbled hopelessly. The pencil fell.
In vain we tried to replace it. The fingers could not close on it.
Then Maud pressed and held the fingers about the pencil with her own hand and
the hand wrote, in large letters, and so slowly that the minutes ticked off to
each letter: “B-O-S-H.”
It was Wolf
Larsen’s last word, “bosh,” sceptical and invincible to the end. The arm
and hand relaxed. The trunk of the body moved slightly. Then there
was no movement. Maud released the hand. The fingers spread
slightly, falling apart of their own weight, and the pencil rolled away. “Do you
still hear?” I shouted, holding the fingers and waiting for the single pressure
which would signify “Yes.” There was no response. The hand was
dead. “I noticed
the lips slightly move,” Maud said. I repeated
the question. The lips moved. She placed the tips of her fingers on
them. Again I repeated the question. “Yes,” Maud announced.
We looked at each other expectantly. “What good
is it?” I asked. “What can we say now?” “Oh, ask him
— ” She
hesitated. “Ask him
something that requires no for an answer,” I suggested. “Then we will
know for certainty.” “Are you
hungry?” she cried. The lips
moved under her fingers, and she answered, “Yes.” “Will you
have some beef?” was her next query. “No,” she
announced. “Beef-tea?” “Yes, he
will have some beef-tea,” she said, quietly, looking up at me. “Until his
hearing goes we shall be able to communicate with him. And after that — ” She looked
at me queerly. I saw her lips trembling and the tears swimming up in her
eyes. She swayed toward me and I caught her in my arms. “Oh,
Humphrey,” she sobbed, “when will it all end? I am so tired, so tired.” She buried
her head on my shoulder, her frail form shaken with a storm of weeping.
She was like a feather in my arms, so slender, so ethereal. “She has
broken down at last,” I thought. “What can I do without her help?” But I
soothed and comforted her, till she pulled herself bravely together and
recuperated mentally as quickly as she was wont to do physically. “I ought to
be ashamed of myself,” she said. Then added, with the whimsical smile I
adored, “but I am only one, small woman.” That phrase,
the “one small woman,” startled me like an electric shock. It was my own
phrase, my pet, secret phrase, my love phrase for her. “Where did
you get that phrase?” I demanded, with an abruptness that in turn startled her. “What
phrase?” she asked. “One small
woman.” “Is it
yours?” she asked. “Yes,” I
answered. “Mine. I made it.” “Then you
must have talked in your sleep,” she smiled. The dancing,
tremulous light was in her eyes. Mine, I knew, were speaking beyond the
will of my speech. I leaned toward her. Without volition I leaned
toward her, as a tree is swayed by the wind. Ah, we were very close
together in that moment. But she shook her head, as one might shake off
sleep or a dream, saying: “I have
known it all my life. It was my father’s name for my mother.” “It is my
phrase too,” I said stubbornly. “For your
mother?” “No,” I
answered, and she questioned no further, though I could have sworn her eyes
retained for some time a mocking, teasing expression. With the
foremast in, the work now went on apace. Almost before I knew it, and
without one serious hitch, I had the mainmast stepped. A derrick-boom,
rigged to the foremast, had accomplished this; and several days more found all
stays and shrouds in place, and everything set up taut. Topsails would be
a nuisance and a danger for a crew of two, so I heaved the topmasts on deck and
lashed them fast. Several more
days were consumed in finishing the sails and putting them on. There were
only three — the jib, foresail, and mainsail; and, patched, shortened, and
distorted, they were a ridiculously ill-fitting suit for so trim a craft as the
Ghost. “But they’ll
work!” Maud cried jubilantly. “We’ll make them work, and trust our lives
to them!” Certainly,
among my many new trades, I shone least as a sail-maker. I could sail
them better than make them, and I had no doubt of my power to bring the
schooner to some northern port of Japan. In fact, I had crammed
navigation from text-books aboard; and besides, there was Wolf Larsen’s
star-scale, so simple a device that a child could work it. As for its
inventor, beyond an increasing deafness and the movement of the lips growing
fainter and fainter, there had been little change in his condition for a
week. But on the day we finished bending the schooner’s sails, he heard
his last, and the last movement of his lips died away — but not before I had
asked him, “Are you all there?” and the lips had answered, “Yes.” The last
line was down. Somewhere within that tomb of the flesh still dwelt the
soul of the man. Walled by the living clay, that fierce intelligence we
had known burned on; but it burned on in silence and darkness. And it was
disembodied. To that intelligence there could be no objective knowledge
of a body. It knew no body. The very world was not. It knew only
itself and the vastness and profundity of the quiet and the dark. |